Monolog : Kerja sbg Security Guard

Hi.. to whoever will to read this entry.

First and foremost, this entry I wrote when I still at work as security guard. Yes.. it is 3.15am.

Ayah aku dulu kerja sebagai security guard juga. In fact he still doing it. Guarding for school. Actually, kerja ni kerja paling senang bagi aku. Tak perlu banyak pengorbanan sangat. Tapi.. tu laaa.. kau akan mereput dalam kebosanan. Yes! BOSAN.
It makes me wondering how my father survive it for almost 10 years work like this. And guess bored is the reason why my father berkenalan dengan seorang aunty until tear my family apart for two years. Stay up until 7 in the morning. Yes.. it is not a though job but yet still make you sick in boredom. This is what I feel right now.

It is not about chosy. I know I got degree. I realize that my degree is not the green light for me to not to choose job like this. Tapi itulah.. aku ni tipe orang yang dah biasa sibuk dengan segala benda apa yang patut disibukkan.
And when I end up just sitting guarding a building that always stood strongly.. it make my brain rotten I guess. I just can't live like this. Unproductive life. At night I stay up and sit. Then keliling bangunan ronda. Nothing happen Alhamdulillah. After that sit again and watching movie.. Urrghh.. How I miss mylife as a busy person during my campus life.

This situation makes me thinking.. the reality of my life. Yes.. I just finished my study at USM.. and there will be a lot of obstacles I may will face ahead. Actually I think I should be grateful working as Security Guard.. the most relax job I think. I got plenty of time to watch movie a night long. and plenty of time to thinking and do some flashback what I had counted a few years back.
But, that is not me. Just sitting and yawning.

It is not a hell. It just a mental torture for me. And yet.. At time I wrote this entry.. I already offered a work which is I hope will give me a busy life I missed.

Right now, I'm in dilemma. Should I quit early or not because I still got one week before start my new work.

Well, I guess.. I have to ask Allah to give me guidance what I should do.

Double work?? I think I am not ready for that. My mind have rest in plenty of time. It had been frozen after I left SMK Sungai Nibong. Then I thought I should take five to be a multitasking person and focus to one particular thing only.

And I guess that will be the end of my first monologue here. Hope we will meet in another time.